Swimming In My Head…

diving in the deep end…

…Been so long…

I can’t believe I haven’t posted anything on here since April. This was truly my outlet and allowed me the opportunity to let go of some of the things that were literally ‘swimming in my head’.

Had to let it go for a time to focus all of my energy on growing the business especially because the economy was seemingly sending it the other way.

Truly learning that the universe works in mysterious ways though. June was a month of getting reacquainted with people that I haven’t seen in over 15 years and getting reacquainted with myself.

Where I thought I had analyzed the situation enough to figure out why these people had reentered my life, I’m finding out that the reason may not be as obvious as I thought.

Through those recent reunions, I’ve had the pleasure of meeting and starting to get to know some amazing people; one of which is Traci (click her name for her blog which is an amazing read).  As a matter of fact, Traci was the inspiration/motivation to unearth the personal blog again.

I’m not sure exactly where everything is heading on all fronts, but what I’ve learned and gained in the way of knowledge and phenomenal people in my life, makes up for the uncertainty.

I’m just going to go with it and see where it takes me…

July 16, 2009 Posted by | Life In General | , , , | 4 Comments

Good weekend

This was one of those great weekends where the weather was perfect, the food was comforting (and therefore tasted good), and the friends were fun.  It was also a reflective weekend for me.  One where I realized that although I’m guarded, the people that I’ve let into my life are phenomenal and this is what I learned from them this weekend:

First, you have to wade through a sea of people to get to the people you will call your close friends.  The ones who you know would be there for you no matter what.  The ones you know you can disagree with, but still like them the next day.  The ones you know that you would take a bullet for.  And when you find them, keep them.

Keeping them can be difficult when they’re matched with someone that you don’t warm up to, or that you don’t think is good enough for them, but being a friend means being supportive throughout and if there’s fallout, being there to pick them up and dust them off and move on.

Second, I learned that of your good friends, there will be some that you don’t see for months at a time, but when you do, it’s like you didn’t miss a day.  Spending time with them is like going on one of those fantastic vacations where you come back refreshed and you’re already calculating the next visit in your head…even if it’s months away.  So lucky to have them.

My partner helped and continues to help me appreciate that different friends bring different things to your life, so understanding that means that the one ‘utopian’ “friend” that we’re all searching for, doesn’t exist.  It’s the collaboration of several different perspectives and qualities that fills that need to feel like we belong, or better yet – that we have people.

I realized that I have friends that I connect with on extremely different levels.  For example, one of my closest and dearest friends and I have this strange, almost extrasensory ability to communicate certain things without saying a word – but we understand each other.  It’s like an ability to read between the lines.  This person has such a big heart and sometimes gets that heart broken in undeserved ways.  There are people that don’t necessarily appreciate them for the person that they are, but when they have the chance to step back and look at things objectively, I’m sure that they’ll realize exactly what I realized – you have to wade through a sea of people to get to the few that will be close to you, worthy of you, or worthy of your time.

All in all, a great weekend and worth every minute.

November 10, 2008 Posted by | Life In General | | 3 Comments